Help i feel very conflicted

[EndlessRage]

3 months ago, i met a girl online we started talking with each other and got pretty close well you could say we might be basically ''Online Dating'' right now i've seen her face and she's seen mine too we shared personal pics with each other but not from her, from me she didn't mind me sending my explicit pictures and was cool with it but she made it very clear to me she's not sending nudes which i'm completely ok with i think it might be due to she got leaked or faced harassment cause of that before but i've never asked her the reason she says ''I'm not that type of girl you know'' she does state alot that she loves me and doesn't want anyone else keeps reassuring me that she won't ever leave me, i tried to breakup with her myself one time but quickly changed my mind and got back with her. She lives in a completely different country then mine, we're pretty afar but we plan to meet up one day if i don't commit suicide.
I feel like i'm not getting back enough attention from her
She never texts first
She never asks me any questions
She needs me to begin the conversation and do all the talking
Conclusion of this: We share 5 or 10 messages only per day
She told me she's just like this, ''i'm not the type of person to start a conversation first you know"
This keeps bothering me, because i think we should talk to each other more because it makes me feel happy for once in a while that someone cares about me
Maybe i'm being so desperate for connection that i can't bring myself to leave or cut her off
She never fights with me, she never argues back, and after all this she says ''You're the most important thing in my life'' which i very much want to believe but you aren't even talking to me asking me things sharing stories
I just want some thoughts on this

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

You need to make a plan to meet her. Right now. And stick with it. Or break up

If the plan needs to wait for over a year to br achieved you should also break up

Long distance relationships dont work

Also dont ever mention nudes again to a girl. Nothing good ever comes from that topic

Youll most likely break up like i did in this kinda situation but its ok. Youll know whats a waste of time in the future

 

[LastNite]

Yeh I agree with Jey. Long distance is Long Hell. Friendships and relationships long distance never work out.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

So you've never video chatted with her? If not, that's a huge red flag. I wouldn't waste my time with someone like that because they could be anyone. From what you've said, it sounds like they just use you to fill some time and they're probably chatting with lots more people than just you.

 

[EndlessRage]

You need to make a plan to meet her. Right now. And stick with it. Or break up

If the plan needs to wait for over a year to br achieved you should also break up

Long distance relationships dont work

Also dont ever mention nudes again to a girl. Nothing good ever comes from that topic

Youll most likely break up like i did in this kinda situation but its ok. Youll know whats a waste of time in the future

i think you're right, i'll talk about it with her but it would be still be hard for me let go like that

So you've never video chatted with her? If not, that's a huge red flag. I wouldn't waste my time with someone like that because they could be anyone. From what you've said, it sounds like they just use you to fill some time and they're probably chatting with lots more people than just you.

Yes, i know i've thought of doing that as soon i get a webcam, we have called with each other though and it went good and no i don't think she's really talking to anyone else right now i can tell

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

Yes, i know i've thought of doing that as soon i get a webcam

Don't you have a cellphone? And don't all computers have built-in cameras?

 

[EndlessRage]

Don't you have a cellphone? And don't all computers have built-in cameras?

I use a monitor not a laptop, i just don't prefer it on cellphone cause it's a bad angle and inconvenient for me to use

 

[VanillaCake]

Not to be a joy killer but like others here have said, this seems doomed to fail. Long distance relationships suck overall and usually end up with one or both partners cheating so it might be better to cut your losses now and move on while you still can (you probably deserve better than to have your heart broken)

 

[EndlessRage]

Not to be a joy killer but like others here have said, this seems doomed to fail. Long distance relationships suck overall and usually end up with one or both partners cheating so it might be better to cut your losses now and move on while you still can (you probably deserve better than to have your heart broken)

im not gonna try and act on my impulses or emotions right now, who knows? if she gave me a reason i wouldn't hesitate this is just how ive been feeling lately it's coming from a place of insecurity