Grimscribe
In Defense of Non-Existence
- May 16, 2023
- 49
It was my sister's birthday last week, and I wasn't invited.
I don't know why, maybe she thought I wouldn't like it or wouldn't go, but an invitation wouldn't hurt, would it? The lack of one made me feel so unloved and worthless, like I wasn't part of a family. Nobody even asked me later why I didn't show up, it's like I'm a ghost, already gone and forgotten.
Made me think of the future, how would people react if/when I CTB. Will they even remember to ask? They say we die twice, once in body and later in memory. Maybe I've already died in memory and the body has yet to catch up.
I don't know why, maybe she thought I wouldn't like it or wouldn't go, but an invitation wouldn't hurt, would it? The lack of one made me feel so unloved and worthless, like I wasn't part of a family. Nobody even asked me later why I didn't show up, it's like I'm a ghost, already gone and forgotten.
Made me think of the future, how would people react if/when I CTB. Will they even remember to ask? They say we die twice, once in body and later in memory. Maybe I've already died in memory and the body has yet to catch up.