Venting i feel so out of place and ik it’s the truth

[comeoutandhauntme]

i'm not sure what makes me so different and weird and estranged from everyone else that they can just see it upon first meeting me, but i'm so tired of it. i feel like i missed a class on how to properly socialize, interact with people, talk to new people, i feel like an alien who's imitating other girls and is just miserably failing. i'm so awkward and weird and everyone can tell and i just absolutely fucking hate it. it didn't help i'm gay and like genuinely ugly/not conventionally attractive like bro why tf am i even alive lol just for other people's entertainment?? an example of how not to be maybe?? i'm so tired of this man i just wanna be gone there's nothing for me here

 

[ipmanwc0]

Same. Other ppl don't need a class tho they just instinctively or learned how to socialize. I don't bother trying to act neurotypical bc I don't succeed anyways. I just hang out only with one or two ppl and otherwise accept lonelines

 

[violetforever]

i relate to this so much. i dont think im terribly ugly or that it has to do entirely with my looks. that makes me feel a little worse lol. i must be extremely socially undeveloped and shy. i feel like everyone can tell somethings wrong with me upon meeting me too. maybe its bc i just always look sad and unapproachable? ive been told that my resting face looks sad a lot. i dont know but nobody ever seems very interested in me. im too quiet and strange and observing.

 

[comeoutandhauntme]

Same. Other ppl don't need a class tho they just instinctively or learned how to socialize. I don't bother trying to act neurotypical bc I don't succeed anyways. I just hang out only with one or two ppl and otherwise accept lonelines

it is this feeling that makes me wonder often if i'm nd in some shape or form. i have other symptoms as well but the constant feeling awkward, weird, and out of place rlly adds to it