I feel so lost and I don't know what to do

[PrettyKitty]

Had another manic episode last night where I wanted to kill myself again and ended up trying to cut my wrists i could not get deep (I wanted to feel pain this was not to die) I was gonna hang myself as end point which is something I always have access too. my family got involved had friends spam calling me and texting me because i sent all my friends a video of me saying how much i loved them I never told them i was gonna kill myself so I found out some guy was telling my friends I was (because of past attempts. I can't seem to kill myself? why? I've failed many time before but like times where if the police were seconds short i would have taken my last breathe but ya know. I just wish dying would be easier for people suffering. anyways thank you for reading I wish you all a good night/day.

 

[Deleted member 60002]

I cannot imagine how you must be feeling right now. I wish you strength in this difficult time. You have my deepest sympathy.

 

[dimstar]

So sorry. The ups and downs can be hell. I hope you feel better and dont get to down on yourself. Please dont blame yourself. Were here for you. Dont let your wounds get infected if they're open.

 

[PrettyKitty]

So sorry. The ups and downs can be hell. I hope you feel better and dont get to down on yourself. Please dont blame yourself. Were here for you. Dont let your wounds get infected if they're open.

Thank you for reply and for being here for me also no worries I cleaned the wound after.

I cannot imagine how you must be feeling right now. I wish you strength in this difficult time. You have my deepest sympathy.

Thank you but you don't need to have sympathy for me it's okay I feel like I deserve most bad things.

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree that dying should be easier, I hate how it's so difficult to finally be free from existing, it's such a cruel world we exist in where we cannot just pass away in peace. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[PrettyKitty]

I agree that dying should be easier, I hate how it's so difficult to finally be free from existing, it's such a cruel world we exist in where we cannot just pass away in peace. But anyway I wish you the best.

I wish you the best too.