I feel so lonely even though there’s people who love me

[ZoloftSüchtig]

I have two parents who love me, I have sisters that do, I have grandparents that love me but still I feel so lonely because after what happened to me I isolated myself. I don't have contact to people outside my family anymore(only very very very very little) and I'm an extroverted person. I NEED to interact with others but I can't. I can't and I'm miserable. I wanna feel loved. I want a hug but I can't because I'm isolating myself and I feel like I'm unlovable. I don't even have a cat or dog. I have no one. My family loves me but they are my family and even from them I isolate myself. I want a man that protects me and loves me but how when I don't go out anymore? How am I supposed to meet people who care about me and I care about them when I can't go outside anymore and the friends I still have left I leave unread for weeks or months because I'm to ashamed to reply back, because I hate myself. I wish I had a gun so I could just shoot myself, I'm too much of a pussy for any methods I have to ctb.

 

[Sadmonster98]

Your feelings are valid. I'm a lot like you, the only difference is it's me who's trying to maintain the friendship with this person I love, I just want them as a friend but I feel they are just using me to vent about themself whenever they feel bad. Now I'm stuck. I don't feel any sense of connection with my religious family ( i'm atheist) even though they love me. I hope you find someone

 

[lv-nii]

I can understand a lot of this feeling, it is overwhelming, I wish I could end it all too, you are not alone in this, I am so sorry

 

[freekid]

I have two parents who love me, I have sisters that do, I have grandparents that love me but still I feel so lonely because after what happened to me I isolated myself. I don't have contact to people outside my family anymore(only very very very very little) and I'm an extroverted person. I NEED to interact with others but I can't. I can't and I'm miserable. I wanna feel loved. I want a hug but I can't because I'm isolating myself and I feel like I'm unlovable. I don't even have a cat or dog. I have no one. My family loves me but they are my family and even from them I isolate myself. I want a man that protects me and loves me but how when I don't go out anymore? How am I supposed to meet people who care about me and I care about them when I can't go outside anymore and the friends I still have left I leave unread for weeks or months because I'm to ashamed to reply back, because I hate myself. I wish I had a gun so I could just shoot myself, I'm too much of a pussy for any methods I have to ctb.

Felt this. My mother is probably my only reason to not ctb immediately.i know how loved and cherished I am by her and I know that I've been her rock. But damn, went homeless after I broke it off with my ex who isolated me. started couch surfing with the 1 friend I have in this city and now they want me to move/can barely look at or talk to me because of how frustrated they are that I'm in their space. Totally ruined it by being around them long enough ig. I hate myself too. I don't know how to fix this. I've tried reaching out to others but ig I'm just not good enough for them to want my company