I feel no emotions (anyone else like this?)

[GoingSoonish]

I feel no emotions at all and haven't for a very long time. I find it weird that people will be upset when i die.

I don't feel either happy or sad about going through with it. It's like going to the supermarket to buy milk -- it doesn't make you either happy or sad, it is just a thing you do (though you may feel inconvenienced).

I don't think i am a sociopath because i feel empathy for others. I used to feel emotions when i was younger.

 

[GoingSoonish]

I will give three examples:

1. Something bad happens to someone i know, or someone i know is in a rough position. I would prefer it if the bad thing didn't happen to them and/or they were not in the rough position, but only because i know that this will make things easier for them and they will feel better (this is what i mean when i say i feel empathy, but i am not sure that it qualifies). I don't personally feel sad or anything though -- have pretty much no emotional reaction to the situation at all.

2. Someone is shitty to me (they betray me, insult me, whatever). I just think "wow this is a shitty person that i should now avoid". I don't feel angry or upset (i just feel like i have bad luck to run into this person).

3. My death. I feel like it isn't significant or important enough to feel any emotion about it. The analogy in the original post describes it perfectly -- i feel like i am going to the store to buy milk (not happy, not sad, just completely indifferent).

I think it is both a curse and a burden. I can never feel happy (sucks) but i can also never feel sad either (good, i guess).

 

[Miss clefable]

Yes and it's scaring me I feel nothing towards myself

 

[Prime]

I relate.
I also don't feel emotions at all. I don't fear anything anymore. I don't like anything anymore. And yes, I can't understand the pain that will be caused after the act to people around me. I have no sympathy for anyone at all. This should sound like extremely psychopathic but I kinda feel happy when someone dies.

 

[Prime]

I feel no emotions at all and haven't for a very long time. I find it weird that people will be upset when i die.

I don't feel either happy or sad about going through with it. It's like going to the supermarket to buy milk -- it doesn't make you either happy or sad, it is just a thing you do (though you may feel inconvenienced).

I don't think i am a sociopath because i feel empathy for others. I used to feel emotions when i was younger.

Yes being emotionless makes "it" like buying milk and grocery that you just do without giving it much thought. But this makes it even more difficult to gi through it. Being full of bad emotions, being angry and sad and desperate will make it easier I think.

 

[Miss clefable]

I relate.
I also don't feel emotions at all. I don't fear anything anymore. I don't like anything anymore. And yes, I can't understand the pain that will be caused after the act to people around me. I have no sympathy for anyone at all. This should sound like extremely psychopathic but I kinda feel happy when someone dies.

Uhhh

 

[Prime]

Uhhh

Whats with the "Uhhh"?

 

[GoingSoonish]

Yes being emotionless makes "it" like buying milk and grocery that you just do without giving it much thought. But this makes it even more difficult to gi through it. Being full of bad emotions, being angry and sad and desperate will make it easier I think.

Yeah this is a good observation. I feel like having a lot of strong emotion can help overcome the survival instinct.

 

[GoingSoonish]

Whats with the "Uhhh"?

I think the part where you said you feel kinda happy when someone dies.

I don't relate to this. My reaction will depend on the context -- if someone was suffering badly and died, then i would think that it was a good thing that they died since they were not suffering anymore.

I don't judge you for feeling that way though. We can't really control how we feel.

 

[Prime]

I think the part where you said you feel kinda happy when someone dies.

I don't relate to this (but depends on the context -- if someone was suffering badly and died, then i would feel happy that they died since they were not suffering anymore).

I don't judge you for feeling that way though. We can't really control how we feel. People would think i am weird too (for basically being a robot).

Yes I can understand why you don't relate to me. Its not your fault. Its mine. Something's wrong with my brain. I just can't understand why I feel pleasure when others are in pain. I shouldn't be jugded for this for I can not help it. Only I can understand this. It feels terrible when someone has died and the entire family is grieving for his/her death but I am standing there rigid and emotionless. I try to cry but tears never roll down my eyes. It hurts to be such an emotionless bastard.

 

[Miss clefable]

Whats with the "Uhhh"?

You feeling happy when people die

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

quite the opposite for me.

im too emotional i think.

 

[Miss clefable]

quite the opposite for me.

im too emotional i think.

Same towards others though

 

[GoingSoonish]

Yes I can understand why you don't relate to me. Its not your fault. Its mine. Something's wrong with my brain. I just can't understand why I feel pleasure when others are in pain. I shouldn't be jugded for this for I can not help it. Only I can understand this. It feels terrible when someone has died and the entire family is grieving for his/her death but I am standing there rigid and emotionless. I try to cry but tears never roll down my eyes. It hurts to be such an emotionless bastard.

I think you do feel emotions if you feel happy, unless you misspoke and meant that you felt it is a good thing (rather than you emotionally feeling happy, which would be different). .

 

[Fallingsky]

Yes I can understand why you don't relate to me. Its not your fault. Its mine. Something's wrong with my brain. I just can't understand why I feel pleasure when others are in pain. I shouldn't be jugded for this for I can not help it. Only I can understand this. It feels terrible when someone has died and the entire family is grieving for his/her death but I am standing there rigid and emotionless. I try to cry but tears never roll down my eyes. It hurts to be such an emotionless bastard.

Interesting, do you think you have ASPD? Do you also have a high IQ?

 

[Prime]

You feeling happy when people die

I can't help it. Its in my blood ever since I was a small child. I can not feel emotions as strongly as others. I don't love anyone. Its not that I don't want to but I can't. I am never happy for others never sad for others and I never find myself supporting others. I am a monster. Always have been. Its beyond my control.

 

[Miss clefable]

I can't help it. Its in my blood ever since I was a small child. I can not feel emotions as strongly as others. I don't love anyone. Its not that I don't want to but I can't. I am never happy for others never sad for others and I never find myself supporting others. I am a monster. Always have been. Its beyond my control.

Where are you from pm me

 

[Prime]

Where are you from pm me

South Asia

 

[Prime]

Interesting, do you think you have ASPD? Do you also have a high IQ?

I have never gone for a diagnosis so can't say.
I have never had an official IQ test but yes I am, what you can call, gifted in philosophy, pure and abstract mathematics and Theoretical Physics. Anything that requires me to think deeply and follow logical steps, I am very very good at it. And yes I have a good memory better than anyone in my family.

 

[Prime]

I think you do feel emotions if you feel happy, unless you misspoke and meant that you felt it is a good thing (rather than you emotionally feeling happy, which would be different). .

I didn't articulate myself properly. Forgive me for that.
Yes I am not completely emotionless. But I have the wrong emotions at the wrong time. And those emotions are never very strong. As I said I feel "kinda" happy when someone dies. I didn't say that I paint my belly and hop around like a clown!

 

[Rollo]

I can't help it. Its in my blood ever since I was a small child. I can not feel emotions as strongly as others. I don't love anyone. Its not that I don't want to but I can't. I am never happy for others never sad for others and I never find myself supporting others. I am a monster. Always have been. Its beyond my control.

So what's the big deal is? You don't emote the way your family does or the the way society expects you to - so what? If you actually don't love anyone - it's a huge blessing. You can dedicate 100% of your actions to satisfying your own needs.

 

[Trashcan]

I kind of go back and forth. When I'm emotionless, I want to be emotions. If I'm feeling emotions, I want to be emotionless.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Me too I have mentioned it a lot of times I don´t feel anything anymore not happiness nor sadness that is why I regret not killing myself when I was 18 and moved out the first time for the sole purpose to kill myself back then I was still a teenager with hormones racing trough my body and I truly FELT something. I had depression back then and I actually miss my depression, the ability to feel everything so intensely it was a huge drive for suicide and it is better than feeling nothing. Feeling nothing is terrible because it makes life so incredibly mundane and boring the last 6 years since I was 18 I have done nothing I have had no new memorable experiences like I had in my teenage years with the dramas of suicidal behavior and breakups with girlfriends who cheated on me and dumped me.

 

[AceOfSpadesCTB]

I've felt that way since I was 16 or 17... Been weird faking my way through relationships because it was required to fit in when I honestly felt nothing for anyone.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I'm not emotionless, but I've a somewhat... blunt... emotional response. For most of my life I thought I was unable to feel "love". It took me 34 years to find out I was wrong.

Anyway, are you under any medication? I've heard people say that antidepressants make them feel like this.

 

[Prime]

I'm not emotionless, but I've a somewhat... blunt... emotional response. For most of my life I thought I was unable to feel "love". It took me 34 years to find out I was wrong.

Anyway, are you under any medication? I've heard people say that antidepressants make them feel like this.

No I am not under any kind of medication except for my digestive disorders.

 

[Miss clefable]

Can I ask a question

 

[Prime]

Can I ask a question

Yes

 

[Miss clefable]

If you had the chance would you kill me

 

[Prime]

If you had the chance would you kill me

I am not THAT big a psycopath Miss.