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Onasis
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- Jul 10, 2022
- 16
I'm 26 and half my life has past by and I have done nothing with my life. I still live with my parents. I am anti social with poor social skills. I have virtually no life experience because I have spent every single day since age 18 basically going from work/class to home. My college degree is worthless because I was too stupid to get something useful. My parents tell me quite a lot that they wish they had a son capable of being better. My friends all feel the same and do not respect me.
I have been to seven different therapist. I have been on six different medications. I have been to a psychiatrist already. I can't do anything to improve. I never have the energy to do anything and when I finally do get the energy, I fail my ass off. I think about killing myself nearly every single day and I have for the past going on 7 years now. I'm so tired of writing down gratitude bullshit that doesn't fucking work for me. I feel like I am too mentally weak to alive and that me dying early is how it should be because people who are mentally/emotionally weak as I am should not be allowed to live anyways.
What the fuck am I supposed to do? Keep applying for jobs that never call back? Fail another entry course for a degree that matters? I literally have no interest in any field in the world. I wish someone from a third world country could trade places with me because they deserve it more than I do.
What the fuck am I supposed to do?
I have been to seven different therapist. I have been on six different medications. I have been to a psychiatrist already. I can't do anything to improve. I never have the energy to do anything and when I finally do get the energy, I fail my ass off. I think about killing myself nearly every single day and I have for the past going on 7 years now. I'm so tired of writing down gratitude bullshit that doesn't fucking work for me. I feel like I am too mentally weak to alive and that me dying early is how it should be because people who are mentally/emotionally weak as I am should not be allowed to live anyways.
What the fuck am I supposed to do? Keep applying for jobs that never call back? Fail another entry course for a degree that matters? I literally have no interest in any field in the world. I wish someone from a third world country could trade places with me because they deserve it more than I do.
What the fuck am I supposed to do?