That's where I am, too.
Sometimes people are too broken to fix --like me. Some things worked for a while --microdosing, acupuncture, etc.-- but now they don't. The nightmares are back, the meltdowns, the broken sleep, the lack of appetite, the physical discoordination...
I can imagine ways that life might become survivable, but none of them are remotely plausible.
With no hope of fixing anything, why continue?