Venting I feel like I’m gonna do it tomorrow.

[traingirl]

I feel like I'm gonna do it tomorrow. I keep thinking about the gun. I keep thinking about dying. It's all I think about. I woke up energized knowing I'm gonna die soon. Not dread or fear about dying. Excitement. I didn't have that before. I'm getting my hair cut and then going to pick up my guns at my friends. Might go visit my best friend and then find a parking lot or secluded place in the woods.

 

[JadedBeing]

I feel like I'm gonna do it tomorrow. I keep thinking about the gun. I keep thinking about dying. It's all I think about. I woke up energized knowing I'm gonna die soon. Not dread or fear about dying. Excitement. I didn't have that before. I'm getting my hair cut and then going to pick up my guns at my friends. Might go visit my best friend and then find a parking lot or secluded place in the woods.

I'm jelous that you get access to a gun and that you have a best friend. Anyways, good luck and if you dont do it, thats ok too. It can always wait , just sayin

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[leftoperish]

Crazy how a gun always come to mind but because i have to pull a trigger i believe I'd get fidgety and not pull the trigger cause i have to do it myself and I'm no pussy or anything but, I'm sure i wouldn't be able to do it. I even read services about being snuffed out, but they always have crazy prices about it, and you wouldn't really know when they would actually go through with it, i mean once I'm gone I wouldn't really miss the cost of it but I'm basically still a dependent and it's not something i can do or afford but its a bold step you're willing to take doing it yourself. Hope you find the peace you need

 

[traingirl]

Crazy how a gun always come to mind but because i have to pull a trigger i believe I'd get fidgety and not pull the trigger cause i have to do it myself and I'm no pussy or anything but, I'm sure i wouldn't be able to do it. I even read services about being snuffed out, but they always have crazy prices about it, and you wouldn't really know when they would actually go through with it, i mean once I'm gone I wouldn't really miss the cost of it but I'm basically still a dependent and it's not something i can do or afford but its a bold step you're willing to take doing it yourself. Hope you find the peace you need

It's a state of mind you have to be in. Ketamine showed me I have nothing to be afraid of.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Good luck hun

 

[traingirl]

Good luck hun

Thank you. Best of luck to you too. Hope you find peace.

 

[auto138491]

May peace find you.

 

[leftoperish]

It's a state of mind you have to be in. Ketamine showed me I have nothing to be afraid of.

Codeine gives me the drive i need but it also makes me think to deep not to use a method where i start to overthink things. Plus I'm too obsessed with keeping my body intact for people who love me. It's a shame love is not enough to cure what plagues my mind. It's not even sadness per say, I just know this universe isn't for me but my body can remain here for who needs it but the atoms of my soul needs to be where it needs to be traveling the cosmos as lightening speed and exploring where it needs to be plus i have some atoms I'm entangled with that i need to join. But the physical matter that needs me here I'd like to give it to them as clean as i can. His story is cool and touching and i respect him for that and i know the peace he needs only he knows how to get, and it's awesome to know that. free will means free will not what society dictates for us.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.