Discussion I feel like I'm desparate to die

[depressionAddict]

The past two weeks of my life have been suddenly incredible. I've been hanging out with people a lot, and I event went to smaller social events (like a board game club). But this just made me want to die again.

I've been so depressed in the last few months, that I haven't even had the capacity to think about wanting to die. But now that some happy things have happened to me, I feel desparate to die.

Just because these past two weeks have had good things in them, doesn't mean that anything has changed. I still feel like there's no place for me in this world. The constant stress of everything (money, job, home, loneliness) is too much.

And right now I'm looking into buying things for the SN method again. I saved sources for it in November, but turns out the source I saved for SN only sells to laboratories. I am also struggling to find a source for Benzos.

Please, if anyone has any information, PM me. I can't take it anymore, I don't want to live anymore. I'm desparate for death. Please help, if you can.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be free from it all, to never suffer ever again is all I personally hope for, I hope that you find the peace you search for.

 

[etherealspring]

I'm in a similar situation, i wish i had the information to help u but i don't, sorry :(

 

[Persik]

I still feel like there's no place for me in this world. The constant stress of everything (money, job, home, loneliness) is too much.

Why did you decide that this world is not your place? And what should happen in your life for you to want to live, what do you think?