Discussion I feel like I deserve to suffer when I die

[nomoredolor]

I'm okay with my chosen method of ctb, drowning in the Atlantic, because I believe I deserve some pain and suffering in my death. Like it will redeem me for the bad things I've said, done or thought.

I think this is likely due to religious trauma.

Does anyone feel similarly?
Anna

 

[whywere]

I was raised, let's see, Catholic, then various forms of protestant religions and now. Now I do not believe in any form of organized religion. It is about money and power, NOT helping folks ever.

Yes, to/for me, there is a GOD and heaven and hell, however, to let a dogma of beliefs rule me when it may not even help me, no way ever.

Now you @nomoredolor, I 100% believe in the power of good and helping towards a better future, and I firmly believe that you are a kind, caring and thoughtful soul with so much not only to give yourself but so many around you and to me on here.

I sit on a hillside and watch a beautiful sunrise or sunset when needed and when I can and tell myself that the world is good and to evolve, helping each other makes the world go around, not any form of religion or religious beliefs.

Lots of love and well wishes to you my good friend.

Walter

 

[nomoredolor]

I was raised, let's see, Catholic, then various forms of protestant religions and now. Now I do not believe in any form of organized religion. It is about money and power, NOT helping folks ever.

Yes, to/for me, there is a GOD and heaven and hell, however, to let a dogma of beliefs rule me when it may not even help me, no way ever.

Now you @nomoredolor, I 100% believe in the power of good and helping towards a better future, and I firmly believe that you are a kind, caring and thoughtful soul with so much not only to give yourself but so many around you and to me on here.

I sit on a hillside and watch a beautiful sunrise or sunset when needed and when I can and tell myself that the world is good and to evolve, helping each other makes the world go around, not any form of religion or religious beliefs.

Lots of love and well wishes to you my good friend.

Walter

Walter you are the best and I appreciate your experiences, perspective and kind words. Thank you for sharing with me. Lots of love to you too friend
Anna

 

[JoysoftheEmptiness]

I was raised, let's see, Catholic, then various forms of protestant religions and now. Now I do not believe in any form of organized religion. It is about money and power, NOT helping folks ever.

Yes, to/for me, there is a GOD and heaven and hell, however, to let a dogma of beliefs rule me when it may not even help me, no way ever.

Now you @nomoredolor, I 100% believe in the power of good and helping towards a better future, and I firmly believe that you are a kind, caring and thoughtful soul with so much not only to give yourself but so many around you and to me on here.

I sit on a hillside and watch a beautiful sunrise or sunset when needed and when I can and tell myself that the world is good and to evolve, helping each other makes the world go around, not any form of religion or religious beliefs.

Lots of love and well wishes to you my good friend.

Walter

I follow Messianic Judaism, both formally, I attend a synagogue, and informally, I pray on my own, I practice it, my way, and I worship with other believers of various strands of it. A relationship with God is personal, don't let religion get in the way of it.

I'm okay with my chosen method of ctb, drowning in the Atlantic, because I believe I deserve some pain and suffering in my death. Like it will redeem me for the bad things I've said, done or thought.

I think this is likely due to religious trauma.

Does anyone feel similarly?
Anna

No-one deserves to suffer.

 

[nomoredolor]

To clarify I no longer follow religion or a have a faith. I have deconstructed. However I'm deeply affected by my lifelong experiences with religion and god. And I can only assume that believing I deserve to suffer is tied to my previous belief of being born an evil dirty sinner. Like the last vestiges
Anna