Venting I feel like a walking paradox

[Claymore7274]

I'm back into working out, eating well, playing with friends, watching shows, but deep inside i know i'm catching the bus soon enough, days feel great, nights are awful, i have been writing my goodbye note lately, but i still can't make sense why i'm working out, i'm never seeing the results

I have been postponing the day since the start of the year because i want to watch a few shows and finish some games before i actually do it, but it all has felt like a total waste of time

 

[EmptyBottle]

Maybe music or similar can make the nights easier?

 

[Claymore7274]

Maybe music or similar can make the nights easier?

i have a terrible energy drink addiction, no matter what i do i can only sleep 4 hours