Venting i feel horrible about myself

[pastilleflowers]

I genuinely am so tired of all of this. I just want out of this horrible world, I hate being me and I hate this terrible life and I just hate everything happening in my life so much but i'm too fucking scared to ctb so im stuck living this life i dont want to. I always comfort everyone being their therapist and im nice to them all but they all hate me. I buy them stuff to try and be nice and they dont fucking care. I just want to be nice but im losing motivation to even care. I havent slept for a few weeks and i just hate myself even more because of it. Im always so tired and grumpy now. I apologize for the lack of capitalization or any grammatical errors im just really tired right now and i needed to say this all to at least feel a little better.

 

[angel31]

Im so sorry u are feeling this way, u really didnt deserve it and its not ur fault… I hope u will feel better soon, however unlikely that may seem… if u ever want to talk or vent or whatever u can always pm me :) and please. Try to sleep. I know its probably really hard but give it at least one (more) try, sleep deprivation is terrible 4 ur mental health and u will feel better if u lay down 4 a bit… (and ur username and pfp is really cute and the cat awwwwwww, that rlly brightened up my day thank u so so so much 4 that <3 is it urs?) I am sending u all the love in the world and a big big big bear hug I hope ull feel better soon, fingers are crossed

 

[love_peep]

it 's terrible that so many people are suffering in this world and they are not even given a self-destruct button , if it existed I would have died a long time ago because I don't want to live in an unfair and cruel world , I hope you will succeed and you will get out of this state or find a way to get out of here so in in any case, I wish you good luck in all your plans

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's so awful and tiring feeling trapped here in an existence you hate, it really should be easier to finally escape from all the suffering, I find it so horrible how suicide is purposely made so difficult.

 

[pastilleflowers]

Im so sorry u are feeling this way, u really didnt deserve it and its not ur fault… I hope u will feel better soon, however unlikely that may seem… if u ever want to talk or vent or whatever u can always pm me :) and please. Try to sleep. I know its probably really hard but give it at least one (more) try, sleep deprivation is terrible 4 ur mental health and u will feel better if u lay down 4 a bit… (and ur username and pfp is really cute and the cat awwwwwww, that rlly brightened up my day thank u so so so much 4 that <3 is it urs?) I am sending u all the love in the world and a big big big bear hug I hope ull feel better soon, fingers are crossed

Thank you so much honestly <33 And i'm sorry for the late response! I really really appreciate your kindness!, (and i wish the cat was mine but im allergic so i stick with looking at cute cat pictures!!) you made my whole month by saying that, thank you for your support, really. <3!

 

[alonely]

i often feel similar and even though it is an awful feeling i feel a little bit better knowing that i'm not the only one going through it so thank you for posting and venting. life is exhausting from feeling like that. hope you're able to get some sleep soon.

fuck capitalization and grammar~