Venting i feel hopeless

[dxm]

yesterday my friend found out that i sent nudes to her ex (under pressure) which ultimately ended our friendship. i only stayed alive for her, i didnt relapse on drugs for her. she was my only friend, my best friend. and i never wanted to lose her. but now, i feel like the world ended!

i've tried partial suspension which didnt work, so i am planning to ctb tomorrow, hopefully it'll work this time.

 

[Dreamwalker]

I'm sorry that happened !! Please find peace whatever you choose

 

[Worndown]

Do you know why it did not work last time?