I feel chest pain and then I hope for it to be a terminal illness.

[UnnervedCompany]

I have been feeling chest pain for the past week or so. I thought it was anxiety or too much caffeine but I currently do not have any assessments and have not drank coffee. I really hope this chest pain is something terminal I really want to die. I do not want to ctb ever but dying early is something I very much wish. I have a medical appointment tomorrow just to check up on this constant hurt. I doubt its a serious illness but I really hope it is. If it is something serious I will probably not seek treatment and not tell anyone I know.

 

[painfullypointless]

I feel/think the same way, I have been actively trying to cause something like that to myself too.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

Always smoking outta my dirty bong till it starts to mold, recently hasn't been like that as I moved in with my partner, but it doesn't mean I don't wish for it still, there at work I'm a chimney with the cigs an a binge drinker when I get "manic" as people seem to call it, I use toxic skin whitening products, I eat little to nothing every two weeks to a week I'll go without eating for a day to two days, It's honestly pathetic, I hate myself It's like I want a more prominent thing that I can't ignore because it involves "health" to allow me to not feel as guilty about adding to the statistics, obviously I have to function still because of the people I've surrounded myself with but people don't notice much when there preoccupied with there own lives and that's completely fine I just don't want to come off like a crackhead

 

[NegevChina]

I have been feeling chest pain for the past week or so. I thought it was anxiety or too much caffeine but I currently do not have any assessments and have not drank coffee. I really hope this chest pain is something terminal I really want to die. I do not want to ctb ever but dying early is something I very much wish. I have a medical appointment tomorrow just to check up on this constant hurt. I doubt its a serious illness but I really hope it is. If it is something serious I will probably not seek treatment and not tell anyone I know.

When I have a chest pain it gives me hope. I'm praying to get a heart attack every night. It didnt happen yet.

 

[Leiot]

I keep hoping something will happen. The only thing I worry about is who will take care of my cats.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also just wish to be gone, ceasing to exist is all I personally hope for. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you are searching for.