TiredofLife-Thanks
Member
- Sep 10, 2023
- 22
I had all the materials available and all that was left was to drink a few more pills and the SN, but my mother suddenly showed up at home. According to her, "a bad feeling". Was fate playing with me?
I couldn't stand the pressure. I was already fighting the self-preservation instinct and collapsed. I felt like that this was not the moment. I didn't say anything, but she knew what I was about to do. My mother and I cried together and she convinced me to leave the house and breathe. In addition to seeking psychological help, which I had long since abandoned.
She looked genuinely hurt. And I didn't have the courage to contradict anything she told me. It was the first time I made my mother cry. I just apologized.
Unfortunately, I find myself on a path of no return. As soon as I have another opportunity, I'll take my things and leave. It was a mistake to have decided to die at home. But I quit my job and I don't have any money left. I'm sorry guys, I just wanted to vent.
I feel ashamed. I feel like a hindrance. I want to disappear so badly.
I'm sorry and I have a feeling that going forward things are only going to get worse.
I couldn't stand the pressure. I was already fighting the self-preservation instinct and collapsed. I felt like that this was not the moment. I didn't say anything, but she knew what I was about to do. My mother and I cried together and she convinced me to leave the house and breathe. In addition to seeking psychological help, which I had long since abandoned.
She looked genuinely hurt. And I didn't have the courage to contradict anything she told me. It was the first time I made my mother cry. I just apologized.
Unfortunately, I find myself on a path of no return. As soon as I have another opportunity, I'll take my things and leave. It was a mistake to have decided to die at home. But I quit my job and I don't have any money left. I'm sorry guys, I just wanted to vent.
I feel ashamed. I feel like a hindrance. I want to disappear so badly.
I'm sorry and I have a feeling that going forward things are only going to get worse.