deadlymongrel
Forget Me Not
- Jan 24, 2023
- 11
I struggle to see a purpose in my continued existence. Waking up is a chore, every day bores me to no end and it depresses me to see that life has devolved into "wake up, work, get paid, spend money, die". I think money is a useless thing and most people around me only seem interested in getting more useless shit or deluding themselves into thinking that any of this vapid, temporary shit means anything. Even knowing that I am living the life some would only dream of, none of this matters. I don't care to keep going on. No one understands why I struggle to find purpose, including my therapist. I have put a gun to my head multiple times wishing to have pulled the trigger but I can't bring myself to do it. I hope one day I can find the desire to live that I once had, but right now I am barely holding on.