Discussion I Envy Those Who CTB

[Bullit]

We just read about that Irish guy who ctb. I really admired him for having the guts to do it. I am chicken. There is nothing but n my life,yet I hang on. I could have a pack of SN in a couple of days,but still haven't bought it yet.
Those who do it,like goat,Ausfahrt and several others,I wish I had the courage.

 

[I want to end it]

Same here (hence my join date). Can you pinpoint the reason you hang on?

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Same here (hence my join date). Can you pinpoint the reason you hang on?

He is chicken.

 

[boc]

There's no shame in that feeling. You're not alone. SI is very very powerful. If you are sure you want to CTB, get everything ready. Then wait and bide your time until it feels right, there is no rush.

 

[Bullit]

He is chicken.

Indeed! But also as much as I feel life is worthless, I think,I don't want to die,I don't want to throw my existence away.

 

[HideUnusualDecision]

Committing a suicide is one of a few things in this world that's really unreversible and against primitive instinct of a live being. If you didn't do it yet, maybe it's not because you are a chicken. Maybe it's because your sanity (or instincts) didn't leave you completely yet.
You say your life is worthless but you value your existence after all. No hurry. It can be done later but then can't be undone. One could say that it's hoarding but maybe throwing away something with a bit of value isn't always the best idea. Give yourself some more time before going one way or another and doing it at peace. Whichever you ultimately will choose.

 

[hʚll]

killing yourself is not easy. so take your time to reach the right mindset that will help you overcome the fears.

 

[FuneralCry]

It isn't cowardly in any way, taking our own lives is hard. As humans we are programmed to survive and live, it is the way our brains are wired which can stop us when we try to take our own lives, even if we want to die. Many methods can lead to failed attempts as well. I envy those who have left this world too, but no matter what happens death will come someday.

 

[noname223]

He is chicken.

I don't like that comment tbh. Ctb is very difficult and sometimes not the right choice.

I don't know for me personally I envy the dead people too. When I was younger I kind of glorified them. I have thought a lot about them. And I really liked those who tried to get better and did almost everything like DWF or AMC. Still they ctb but did not throw their existence away easily. I am kind of ambivalent on that. It feels like somehow I am in the same boat as them.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

I don't like that comment tbh. Ctb is very difficult and sometimes not the right choice.

His words, not mine.