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bloomingdahlia_
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- Jun 22, 2024
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ive been feeling like this lately.
everytime i hear someone who passed away from suicide....i feel sad of course, but a huge part of me wishes that was me. a huge part of me wishes i can do the same.
i cant understand how people can just make such a very drastic, final, and huge decision. i cant understand how they manage to overcome the fear and uncertainty behind the action. i dont understand...why cant that be me? i dont know why i just cant do it. i think about dying every single day. it never leaves my mind. i always saw death as the solution to everything. but it feels as if i cant actually face death.
its like having a mind that desperately wants to die, but a body that desperately wants to live.
im so tired. i wish i never existed in the first place so i dont have to deal with all of this.
everytime i hear someone who passed away from suicide....i feel sad of course, but a huge part of me wishes that was me. a huge part of me wishes i can do the same.
i cant understand how people can just make such a very drastic, final, and huge decision. i cant understand how they manage to overcome the fear and uncertainty behind the action. i dont understand...why cant that be me? i dont know why i just cant do it. i think about dying every single day. it never leaves my mind. i always saw death as the solution to everything. but it feels as if i cant actually face death.
its like having a mind that desperately wants to die, but a body that desperately wants to live.
im so tired. i wish i never existed in the first place so i dont have to deal with all of this.