anopenwound
I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
- Jul 27, 2024
- 157
It's ironic how things turned out to be. I used to have incredibly vivid nightmares that'd leave me panicked in the morning, before I could understand none of it was real. Those nightmares are my reality now. I keep on trying to find ways to wake up. Theres nothing to wake up from.
I had a dream after I was in the hospital two days ago. It was like, the reverse version of my own life. Everything was OK. In every single aspect, details of my life were mirrored. If my current life is the worst timeline, that dream was the best timeline. I was happy. I was jumping up and down walking through the streets of my hometown. It was sunny and warm. My friends were all around.
I woke up with a huge headache. Little by little the realisation of how fucked everything is sunk in. I wish I didn't wake up. I wish that dream lasted more than what felt like ten minutes. I dont wanna be awake, I dont wanna take part in life. I want to sink into the ground through my bed and disappear at the center of the earth. I want nobody to find me. I want peace.
I had a dream after I was in the hospital two days ago. It was like, the reverse version of my own life. Everything was OK. In every single aspect, details of my life were mirrored. If my current life is the worst timeline, that dream was the best timeline. I was happy. I was jumping up and down walking through the streets of my hometown. It was sunny and warm. My friends were all around.
I woke up with a huge headache. Little by little the realisation of how fucked everything is sunk in. I wish I didn't wake up. I wish that dream lasted more than what felt like ten minutes. I dont wanna be awake, I dont wanna take part in life. I want to sink into the ground through my bed and disappear at the center of the earth. I want nobody to find me. I want peace.
