I don’t want to ruin Christmas but I want to die now

[offtoseethewizard]

I'm in so much fucking pain and my brain is broken permanently. I have no SI at all. But I can't ruin this time of year for my family.

I just want to go. I'm so sad.

 

[IHurtTheOneILove]

I'm in so much fucking pain and my brain is broken permanently. I have no SI at all. But I can't ruin this time of year for my family.

I just want to go. I'm so sad.

Exact same boat I'm in. Living day to day is unbearable but I cant ruin christmas for my family. I'm waiting until January most likely. Hope all is well with you

Edit: not exact same boat as I'm sure your situation is more dire than mine just kn regards to not wanting to ruin christmas for family

 

[FuneralCry]

It's very understandable just wanting to be free from all the suffering, I get that it's so dreadful feeling trapped here. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Immensevoid]

I'm in so much fucking pain and my brain is broken permanently. I have no SI at all. But I can't ruin this time of year for my family.

I just want to go. I'm so sad.

I completely understand how you feel.. I am in the same situation, I can't function anymore since a long time and I'm just trying to survive these 'holidays days'..

 

[release_me]

I hear you my friend. Im having the worst possible christmas in all of my miserable existence. All I'm thinking of is killing myself but you seem to be considerate and sensitive enough to think about your family and not ruining it for them. You are a good soul, a tormented one I can see, but good nonetheless. May you be blessed. May it turn for good. Peace.