Venting I don't want to do this anymore.

[Backwoodsqueer]

I've had a shit night, a shit week, and an already shitty year. I gave up the love of my life. I made mistake after mistake. My physical health is on a steady decline. I have no one that cares about me or puts in any effort to have me in their life. I never have been, and never will be, a priority for anyone. I'm easily replaced and everyone knows it. I have SN and I know everyone says not to act on impulse but I so badly want to take a handful of narcotics and benzos, follow it with some rum, and let nature take its course. If I die, I die. If not, I'll have a killer headache to nurse tomorrow.

I'm sorry if you wasted time reading that mess. I just don't know what to do with my thoughts anymore.

 

[lovemelovemenot]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this right now yo. I understand how it is. If it can help you from acting impulsively and maybe just want to chat, feel free to PM me.