Venting I don't want to die

[qwert3948]

it's like the third time this week that i think "this is the worst day of my life". all i think about is commiting suicide. i review each step in my own head over and over to get through the hard moments. i don't want to die but living is too hard. i can't do everything that is expected of me. even though i don't want to i just might because i can't see another way.

when i was revising my steps i thought that, i would never finish all the things i genuinely want to do. i feel like shit. i'm so sad.

 

[Karrikin]

Can you see yourself staying for these things you want to do? Why not experience them first before making anything final? Just some thoughts, but I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way though. I hope things get better for you.

 

[thewalkingdread]

I totally understand this paradoxal situation/feeling you're going through... It's soulcrushing. I also don't want to keep living, but ctbing is a super hard thing to do.