i dont want to die, it's moreso i don't want to exist

[khun]

I've planned suicides for as long as i can remember, i was always thought to be "special and talented" among other things but in reality all i am is a failure. I wont get too much into the details there. But it's more like in the small chance someone cares, i imagine them feeling the same pain i feel right now which is what keeps me from committing. I don't know what to do.

 

[Gangrel]

I understand my friend, i'm sorry your brain acts like that. It's okay to just live...

 

[peerlesscucumber]

I've planned suicides for as long as i can remember, i was always thought to be "special and talented" among other things but in reality all i am is a failure. I wont get too much into the details there. But it's more like in the small chance someone cares, i imagine them feeling the same pain i feel right now which is what keeps me from committing. I don't know what to do.

I absolutely can relate to this!
I don't know if this is exactly the same way you feel. But it's like, you're not suicidal, its just that living on, having to bear with your own and other's expectations is just too much of a chore.

 

[Themogger]

I've planned suicides for as long as i can remember, i was always thought to be "special and talented" among other things but in reality all i am is a failure. I wont get too much into the details there. But it's more like in the small chance someone cares, i imagine them feeling the same pain i feel right now which is what keeps me from committing. I don't know what to do.

Relatable