ripbug
pretending happily ever after
- Feb 16, 2022
- 8
everyday it gets harder. i wish i did it sooner but its just so difficult. if there was a button i could press to just kill me i wouldve ended it about 100 times already. ive been planning to ctb sometime this summer because after that there's nothing left for me. i have no direction and no purpose and no motivation in the slightest to find either. i feel like ive lost myself and i dont even know who i am anymore. but as the summer approaches i feel sick thinking about what needs to be done. if only i had done it sooner. i really have no choice and it has to happen sooner or later.