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QuincyME

QuincyME

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Feb 23, 2024
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that's why im gonna ctb with a gunshot to head, all u need is 1 second of courage to pull the trigger and you're gone.
Good luck pulling the trigger. I bought a .45 for the express purpose of ending this miserable fucking existence and I can't pull the trigger. I've practiced so much, but when it comes time to actually do it I can't. It makes me even more depressed than what I already am.
 
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forgivemegod

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Jun 26, 2025
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Like I always say, you americans are so lucky to have so easy access to guns
Good luck pulling the trigger. I bought a .45 for the express purpose of ending this miserable fucking existence and I can't pull the trigger. I've practiced so much, but when it comes time to actually do it I can't. It makes me even more depressed than what I already am.
 
derpsie

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Aug 13, 2025
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Isn't carbon monoxide poisoning painless and kind of instant when you do it right? Or is that a big fat lie like sodium nitrite was.
 
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EmptyBottle

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Apr 10, 2025
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Isn't carbon monoxide poisoning painless and kind of instant when you do it right? Or is that a big fat lie like sodium nitrite was.
depends on the concentration... personally I think that exploding with a few kilos of TNT (or being in the oceangate sub when it imploded) is completely painless, but ofc messy, and might have fear beforehand (think all methods have some fear beforehand, idk)
 
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strawberry931

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Aug 23, 2025
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Isn't carbon monoxide poisoning painless and kind of instant when you do it right? Or is that a big fat lie like sodium nitrite was.
yes it is peaceful. The goal is to sustain a very high concentration for as long as you can. How long is needed depends on the ppm you can sustain. I nearly CTB from this 3 weeks ago. The next won't be a fail.

Why I say it's peaceful: As long as you can sustain over 3200 ppm then you will be unconscious very quickly. Well before any of the other symptoms can take affect. After that you would go into respiratory or cardiac arrest and from what I researched an unconscious person would not be aware of either one of those. From my first attempt 3 weeks ago I went unconscious within minutes and didn't wake up until I was in the hospital for two days. So I was unconscious in the car for over 7 hours, brought to the hospital around noon and did not wake up until the evening of the following day. It's only then when I woke up that I realized how peaceful it was. Peaceful because it was nothing. No concept of passing time like anesthesia. When I woke I was not in pain. Just very weak and tired. I could barely move. I was told the first thing I said was "thirsty". This was probably a lot to do with being intubated.

Now nobody can say for sure what happens once your brain is fully gone and that may or may not be peaceful.

I created this account for the purpose of sharing my recent experience. You can read more details in my post.

I think dying, especially from suicide, is painful, emotionally and physically. There is no peace in it; also we don't know what happens or where we go after we die. So basically, we're fucked, living or dying. I don't think suicide is a solution, I don't think there is a solution, I'm completely fucked.
You are right about this. There is not emotional peace, but might be physically peaceful methods. I think any dying, natural or not, may not be emotionally peaceful. I think severe pain can make you forget about the emotion part. And I'm not necessarily referring to suicide pain. Just pain in general. But that means you're are not physically peaceful. In fact, it may go the other way too. If you are having severe emotional distress then it might make your forget about the physical pain.
Like you said though, we don't know what happens once you fully crossover.
Death is a dreamless sleep, multiple accounts of people who have temporarily died have said this. There is peace in death otherwise we wouldn't choose it.
this sounds more like being unconscious. Dead is dead. There is no temporarily dead.
 
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