I realized that I have no peace in my life.
I am so desperate for it that I am willing to die to get it.
It dawned on me that it might had been one minute between my being in a jail cell or a luxury hotel right now. I might had gotten damned lucky. After trying to overdosing on Tuesday, I can't see myself making it through the weekend. If I have to throw myself off a cliff, then I will do it. I am not as afraid of death as I was a week ago. As much as I hated having to recover physically from a drug overdose while being pecked at with work calls and emails and noisy maids, I am thankful that I am where I am. Life is really overrated.
I am so desperate for it that I am willing to die to get it.
It dawned on me that it might had been one minute between my being in a jail cell or a luxury hotel right now. I might had gotten damned lucky. After trying to overdosing on Tuesday, I can't see myself making it through the weekend. If I have to throw myself off a cliff, then I will do it. I am not as afraid of death as I was a week ago. As much as I hated having to recover physically from a drug overdose while being pecked at with work calls and emails and noisy maids, I am thankful that I am where I am. Life is really overrated.
