BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,635
I don't know what's going on. I don't feel like I know people, I don't feel like I've had my past jobs or education. I just graduated from college and I don't even remember college - I don't even feel like I was a student. I know I was because I have my diploma and awards here, but it just feels wrong. I guess I just feel detached from my memories in general, and myself, and people I should feel close to. I hardly even remember my damn suicide attempt, and that happened this year. I feel detached from what I remember about that, too.
I've had issues with dissociation before, especially when my anxiety and depression get really intense, but this is unnerving. I've talked to a therapist about my dissociation and they didn't seem concerned about it, even though it seems pretty much chronic to me. Maybe it's because it's generally mild.
I wonder if this is anxiety and depression stressing me out on a whole new level. I suppose it could be "trauma"... I don't remember my childhood, or adolescence...or, at this point, even my young adult years. Maybe I'm starting to actually lose my mind.
I've had issues with dissociation before, especially when my anxiety and depression get really intense, but this is unnerving. I've talked to a therapist about my dissociation and they didn't seem concerned about it, even though it seems pretty much chronic to me. Maybe it's because it's generally mild.
I wonder if this is anxiety and depression stressing me out on a whole new level. I suppose it could be "trauma"... I don't remember my childhood, or adolescence...or, at this point, even my young adult years. Maybe I'm starting to actually lose my mind.