Well firstly hello everyone, I'm new here and a little worried about if I'm even worthy enough to be here conversing, reacting or even posting. So I'll keep it short.
I wanted to just express a little bit about what's on my mind.
I'm in a state of disarray yet apathy... I can't quite seem to grasp the consequences of my actions or future plans. I think I'm certain then I'm obscuring those very plans in the same breath. So much has happened and honestly living is not what I am doing right now; I'm existing physically with a facade of coping mentally. I have lost what meant the most to me and I find no one is able to understand the depths to my apathy/emptiness because I am surrounded but utterly alone. There is this doubt about how meaningful life is in my mind; does it mean anything or does it mean everything? Do I even have the confidence to ctb?
Anyone else feel certain that they have made a decision yet simultaneously unable to ascertain if they really are completely sure and therefore prolonging their choice?
Sorry that this is such a confusing read:(
I wanted to just express a little bit about what's on my mind.
I'm in a state of disarray yet apathy... I can't quite seem to grasp the consequences of my actions or future plans. I think I'm certain then I'm obscuring those very plans in the same breath. So much has happened and honestly living is not what I am doing right now; I'm existing physically with a facade of coping mentally. I have lost what meant the most to me and I find no one is able to understand the depths to my apathy/emptiness because I am surrounded but utterly alone. There is this doubt about how meaningful life is in my mind; does it mean anything or does it mean everything? Do I even have the confidence to ctb?
Anyone else feel certain that they have made a decision yet simultaneously unable to ascertain if they really are completely sure and therefore prolonging their choice?
Sorry that this is such a confusing read:(
