Help I dont know what to feel anymore

[PinkyStat]

I had mt first serious partial attempt today with a thick wire on a metal thingy holding a shelf, i fell unconscious for the first time (have already tried Sooo many times before as a ''test'') but the metal thing broke and i woke up lying on the ground… i felt like it was almost there, now my neck is marked (trying to hide with makeup) and my throat hurts a lot, at least i didn't get some serious damage right…?
Honestly i dont feel nothing right now, im just more empty than usual, it is kinda hard to describe (i have been trying to think in how describe this part for the last 35 minutes) just dont know how to feel, because I got some progress right? But idk when i can try to ctb again, i just wish that i lived alone.
(Sorry for any spelling mistakes or ''weird'' parts, im just so tired rn)

 

[MrDarkness]

I wish I was able to pass out, learned that it isn't possible via your hands, you need a hard rope or belt to do it, this may sound fucked up, but how did I feel to fall unconscious? I'm planning on ctbing soon. I tried before and fucked my throat

 

[PinkyStat]

I wish I was able to pass out, learned that it isn't possible via your hands, you need a hard rope or belt to do it, this may sound fucked up, but how did I feel to fall unconscious? I'm planning on ctbing soon. I tried before and fucked my throat

It really fvcks your throat, it is a little bit weird to explain, but i just remember seeing dots as usual and having the vision (kinda) slowly blacking out, i still could breathe, i remember still feeling the pressure and feeling like i got ''sleepy'' but still half awake, I *think that i felt my hands tingling but im not completely sure
That might seem confusing (and it is) but i just wrote the symptoms as i can remember them

 

[MrDarkness]

It really fvcks your throat, it is a little bit weird to explain, but i just remember seeing dots as usual and having the vision (kinda) slowly blacking out, i still could breathe, i remember still feeling the pressure and feeling like i got ''sleepy'' but still half awake, I *think that i felt my hands tingling but im not completely sure
That might seem confusing (and it is) but i just wrote the symptoms as i can remember them

Ok thanks, just curious

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing ctb is what I fear and is what sounds so awful to me, I certainly wish that it's easier to finally leave, it really does make the hanging method sound easier when you hear of people succeeding. At least you didn't end up with damage though, such a thing sounds so incredibly horrific.

 

[Crono]

I had mt first serious partial attempt today with a thick wire on a metal thingy holding a shelf, i fell unconscious for the first time (have already tried Sooo many times before as a ''test'') but the metal thing broke and i woke up lying on the ground… i felt like it was almost there, now my neck is marked (trying to hide with makeup) and my throat hurts a lot, at least i didn't get some serious damage right…?
Honestly i dont feel nothing right now, im just more empty than usual, it is kinda hard to describe (i have been trying to think in how describe this part for the last 35 minutes) just dont know how to feel, because I got some progress right? But idk when i can try to ctb again, i just wish that i lived alone.
(Sorry for any spelling mistakes or ''weird'' parts, im just so tired rn)

The wire was in which part of the neck, above or below or in the middle of the neck?

Did you feel pain in your neck before passing out?