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catbunny
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- Jun 19, 2024
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i am so tired of living like this. i dont know what to do, what to be, what to think. i am so exhausted and lost and i dont know. i thought life is getting better for a sec and then its all when back to where i was. i feels so jealous of everyones life, i dont like the way they being so happy and have so many people, friends surrounding them with love and support. i hate that it didnt happen to me. i hate how i go around and help people even though i cant even help myself. no one ever asked me if i feel alright, ppl left me bc they think im too negative, my parents still didn't believe me when i told them im tired. i tried so much to be better but itve never worked. i want to die so bad, i want to give up everything and kms but i cant, not like i dont want to but nothing is accessible, and its driving me insane. why do i have to see people be so happy when i have nothing? why i tried so hard on life to receive nothing? whats the point of trying if the results is nothing? why do i have to try so hard? im so tired. i wish i can just leave this place.
this may sounds crazy, like im insane (i am) and selfish (i am) but i want to have a happy relationship like what my friend have, i want to have so many friends that when i posted something on social media, someone will comment and reply it, i want live the life that they live. idk even if these things happened and i live the life like that, i think there still be a voice beside my ears saying "kill your self" and id be happy to do that.
this may sounds crazy, like im insane (i am) and selfish (i am) but i want to have a happy relationship like what my friend have, i want to have so many friends that when i posted something on social media, someone will comment and reply it, i want live the life that they live. idk even if these things happened and i live the life like that, i think there still be a voice beside my ears saying "kill your self" and id be happy to do that.