Worsethangarbage
Student
- Nov 13, 2018
- 138
Because i let that numbness consume me so now i have another problem then what i had before now i feel near nothing i dont feel happy i don't feel pain i couldn't care less of others except unless my habit of answering questions becomes apart of it thats all@frank630 @Noiseless why are you here then?
I'm saying this idea can work for you because you said only for a few years not a dozen during this time you don't suffer you simply don't feel anythingWhile I don't hate the society, I genuinely don't like the idea of being a part of it. I have to work 10x harder than anyone else in my class (except maybe a few?) to get anywhere because of my background. People say education and opportunities are getting more and it's not that hard to rise up from the bottom are fucking delusional. I am in shit country with shit parents in a shit family with a shit past that leads to where I am now and I have no future if any. Sure, I can become self supporting but that's not the point. What I want to do will be out of my reach because duh you need money to do that. Should I wait until 30-35 when I am able to do those shit? But what's the point of suffering for so long?
And that's why I am trying to kill myself here or at least that's how my first attempt was. I tried cutting but didn't feel anything so dunno if that's good since I didn't cut after because there was nothing to gain. Partial was a bit weird because of survival instinct that are involuntary same with drowning.I'm saying this idea can work for you because you said only for a few years not a dozen during this time you don't suffer you simply don't feel anything
Cutting doesn't work it's only seen as a cry for helpI wish I hadn't done that tbh. Should have researched more and tried something better since that put my family on suicide watch and now I don't have access to any chemicals or stuff .
Oh, I didn't cut to suicide. Just to feel something since I was feeling super numb for a week or so before.Cutting doesn't work it's only seen as a cry for help
Oh, I didn't cut to suicide. Just to feel something since I was feeling super numb for a week or so before.
That's my only advice it isn't the only advice but it's my own I will say though at this point there is no reason not to try and instead of cutting use a pin I already was at that stage believe me a pin is better although I recommend you stop giving your self reasons to not try something for me this way of doing things was a temporary fix to a permanent problem yours however is temporary if you do want to know a way of getting through your issue this was it this will be work for you for about 3-5 years before you simply truly feel nothing anymore good luckOh, I didn't cut to suicide. Just to feel something since I was feeling super numb for a week or so before.