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Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
- Apr 13, 2021
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I really feel like forcing myself to disable my account by announcing I'm leaving SS. I don't know what I'm still doing here. I'm tired & scared of getting attached to people I can't help & losing them, that shit really hurts; I never want to be PM'd by anyone else again. I'm also tired of repeating myself. There are only so many things you can say to other members to try to comfort & support them before you start sounding like a fucking broken record. I get nothing out of venting; it just makes me feel worse. Why the hell is it so hard for me to leave? Why do I feel like I'd be betraying something? Wtf is this, am I experiencing some sort of survivor's guilt because I have a partner now & I'm not going to ctb in the foreseeable future? I'm just so disgusted with myself.