I don't know what I was thinking. I need to focus on this. CTB is the only outcome possible in my situation.

[thereisnomeaning]

I can't wait anymore. I was so high all the time I forgot my life was torn apart. I'll never have a friend. I'll never have a job. I'll never finish university. I'll never break out of my addiction. I'll never have a real male body. I'll never pay off my debts. I'll never be a functional fucking being. I'll never build a life, there's nothing to build from me.
I truly don't know what I was thinking, it can't wait much longer, I need to get the stuff for my method asap, but I spent everything I had on drugs. I'm feeling so fucking weak, so small in front of everything. I wish somebody would kill me so I didn't have to think anymore about this as well.

 

[FuneralCry]

There certainly is too much suffering in existing so I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for, it's very much understandable just wishing to be gone.

 

[Hotsackage]

kind of in the same boat, mentallly screwed, will never have a job or gf. cant meet new people etc. im an alcoholic, i would like to figure it out but this brain man. neway i feel you