Venting I dont know if this is the right place to put this but have i just been faking all this time?

[0kcomputer]

So, im just having major imposter syndrome today and nobody seems to even want to help so I'm here.

My therapy appointment is coming up soon and I want to try to get a diagnosis for autism but I feel like I'm a major faker. I dont remember my childhood, and even then I just seem like a normal kid, but I know i was a outcast, and I fit most of the symptoms maybe. I just...i don't fit every criteria perfectly and I hate it. I just want to know whats wrong, I don't understand what's wrong. I just want to fit the label properly and be normal like everyone else with autism too. They fit it, I don't understand why I'm not perfectly fitting it too.

It is really stressful for me, I just want to find out what's wrong because not even i understand it most of the time. I also don't know if it's just internalized masking from trauma or if I'm really just a normal depressed person.

I dont know...should I even still ask the therapist. I dont know :(

 

[atrophy]

Not everyone conforms to the rule book.

I understand how you feel. Do know that therapists are supposed to empathize with you and not invalidate your concerns and feelings.

Psychiatrists often misdiagnose conditions as not everyone fits the mould.

Do talk to your therapist and make sure they listen without judgement and offer you empathy.