TheEndof
It's getting dark and it's getting cold
- Dec 31, 2019
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I've progressed to the point where I am having severe panic attacks every day. I was at a place where I felt very little or I would feel immense sadness and would be able to cry it out or sleep it off. Now, I can't even do either of those things properly because I get attacks that make it impossible for me to breathe properly or relax. I feel like I'm having a heart attack. I'm probably going to go see a doctor soon and hopefully get something to help with these physical symptoms because I can't live like this and the only other alternative is to CTB. I just want to go back to being sad and cut off. I haven't been able to do much of anything all week. It feels like something is building up within me and I just want to get it out.