I don't know how can I defend myself

[Surferonce]

I've been thinking about doing it just to end this feeling. Last weekend was hell. My so called friends gossiped about me. What hurts me is that they didn't even asked for my side of the story. I had to sit for 6 hours and pretend or tried to sleep while they gossiped behind my back, literally. It was a big issue and they're not part of. It was work. I admit I did something wrong but tbe conclusion is wrong. I just made a wrong report. Or basically tampered but I never stole anything. I think they will pin all the losses of the company on me. Even the money stolen from other people. I make take the blame for it. I heard it was millions. I don't even have that kind of money. I barely buy things for myself. I only started buying this year I think but more of my needs. I honestly don't know how can I survive this. My reputation is tarnished. I think suicide will be an easy way out to escape this. What method should I use though? I want easy and painless as much as possible.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

We can't suggest anything. You have to look through the methods and decide for yourself. I am personally using N

 

[Surferonce]

We can't suggest anything. You have to look through the methods and decide for yourself. I am personally using N

That's some illegal shit here too. I think it's hard to obtain. Been researching too.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

That's some illegal shit here too. I think it's hard to obtain. Been researching too.

It's illegal everywhere but members here still manage to get it

 

[mrhighwaysend]

if you need someone to talk to you can dm me

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a stressful situation you are in. I'm sorry you are going through this, life really is so horrible. There is a resource section for methods but of course suicide is very difficult. If I knew of an easy, painless way out I would be already gone. I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[rationaltake]

I've been thinking about doing it just to end this feeling. Last weekend was hell. My so called friends gossiped about me. What hurts me is that they didn't even asked for my side of the story. I had to sit for 6 hours and pretend or tried to sleep while they gossiped behind my back, literally. It was a big issue and they're not part of. It was work. I admit I did something wrong but tbe conclusion is wrong. I just made a wrong report. Or basically tampered but I never stole anything. I think they will pin all the losses of the company on me. Even the money stolen from other people. I make take the blame for it. I heard it was millions. I don't even have that kind of money. I barely buy things for myself. I only started buying this year I think but more of my needs. I honestly don't know how can I survive this. My reputation is tarnished. I think suicide will be an easy way out to escape this. What method should I use though? I want easy and painless as much as possible.

It sounds like you might want to look at ways of dealing with this situation. As it seems to be your only reason for wanting to ctb. Though I do appreciate how desperate you are. It's not easy.

 

[Death is beautiful]

It's illegal everywhere but members here still manage to get it

have you already received your?