I don't have a single person in my life right now

[InsatiableEmptiness]

I live by my own means right now. I'm in a shared apartment. I have my own room but everything else is shared. It's like how you'd live with a family but I don't call anyone here even a friend. I'm surrounded by pressure and the people here are unpredictable. I'm the youngest at 23. I have a cat I love. His name is Rusty. He is the only physical and emotional affection I have. I'm so on the last of my energy. Everyone around me is demanding, I am a tool to be used. I struggle to breathe sometimes when I feel like how I do right now. I feel so desperate for anything. I am really seeking out anything to help me just fucking escape. I don't know if that means fleeing or dying.

This is just a vent post. Also if u get this far please don't send a hug emote or anything like that. I kinda interpret it as mocking, that's my fault but yeah. Thanks for reading.

I don't know if the immediate catharsis I feel is good but I don't think I'm just seeking attention either. I really like the idea of someone just seeing me for once, even if I never truly know.

Overall I feel like I'm in a cage and I'm being humiliated and I just want to get out.

 

[Riu]

Same tbh, I don't talk to anyone anymore, not even my family. I feel like everyone I get close to don't really care about me and I always get hurt about it because I'm just weak or something. I think I'm better off being alone but it's still pretty sad.

 

[fields.of.lace]

Yeah I feel this. Even the deliberate humiliation just to make themselves feel better.
Yay for Rusty. Sorry for everything else. I think I see you. And you too Riu.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really tiring feeling trapped in that situation, it's so awful how humans just create more suffering, it's very true that you certainly cannot rely on other people. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[InsatiableEmptiness]

Same tbh, I don't talk to anyone anymore, not even my family. I feel like everyone I get close to don't really care about me and I always get hurt about it because I'm just weak or something. I think I'm better off being alone but it's still pretty sad.

Everyone just wants something, its frustrating

 

[SlowBurn]

I live by my own means right now. I'm in a shared apartment. I have my own room but everything else is shared. It's like how you'd live with a family but I don't call anyone here even a friend. I'm surrounded by pressure and the people here are unpredictable. I'm the youngest at 23. I have a cat I love. His name is Rusty. He is the only physical and emotional affection I have. I'm so on the last of my energy. Everyone around me is demanding, I am a tool to be used. I struggle to breathe sometimes when I feel like how I do right now. I feel so desperate for anything. I am really seeking out anything to help me just fucking escape. I don't know if that means fleeing or dying.

This is just a vent post. Also if u get this far please don't send a hug emote or anything like that. I kinda interpret it as mocking, that's my fault but yeah. Thanks for reading.

I don't know if the immediate catharsis I feel is good but I don't think I'm just seeking attention either. I really like the idea of someone just seeing me for once, even if I never truly know.

Overall I feel like I'm in a cage and I'm being humiliated and I just want to get out.

RUN, FREEDOM IS AT HAND. All you have to do is want it and reach your hand out.

 

[thecolourgold]

Whoever hug emoted after you said please don't is a jerk lol. Wishing you peace. Kiss rusty for us.

 

[sulli]

same, also sorry some people see 'please don't hug me' as a challenge lol