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lovelulu

lovelulu

with stars in my eyes, crying as I wheel.
Jan 3, 2026
203
I've been cutting myself for a few years now, with countless different kinds of blades. For some reason now, I barley feel any pain from it anymore. Not even when im actively cutting. if it's relevant I get slightly deep cuts, styro maybe. Anyway, its like I dont feel the pain at all anymore—if I cant feel it anymore, why do I still want to do it? For the blood? The scars? I dont know.
 
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coldworld

coldworld

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Dec 25, 2025
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yeah i dont really feel much anymore either but i like the blood
 
lovelulu

lovelulu

with stars in my eyes, crying as I wheel.
Jan 3, 2026
203
yeah i dont really feel much anymore either but i like the blood
Yeah, that's really the only satisfying thing, its interesting how even shallow cuts can spill out so much blood.
 

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