Venting I don’t even know what to post anymore

[ThatStateOfMind]

I desperately want to post and vent, but I'm at the point where it seems pointless and I have no words to say anymore. I am seriously considering CTB soon. I've said that a lot and pussied out before, and maybe this is no different but I'm struggling so badly. I'm grateful for the people I've met and friends I've made here.

Also this isn't a goodbye post, just a vent, thought if I do go through with CTB, I will likely make one. It feels like my brain no longer functions properly.

 

[depressedinsomniac]

yeah mental health is a precious thing. once you lose it mental health things get hard. Do you still experience joy or pleasure? i have anhedonia and it is pretty rough. Do you work? maybe changing jobs? Some people suggest travel. For me exercising does help.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

yeah mental health is a precious thing. once you lose it mental health things get hard. Do you still experience joy or pleasure? i have anhedonia and it is pretty rough. Do you work? maybe changing jobs? Some people suggest travel. For me exercising does help.

I'm in college currently, seeking employment for the Spring. I can barely experience joy. I've never been able to stick to a consistent workout routine.

I'll admit, some of what I'm going through is due to current circumstances. It's looking like I'm going to have to move for college, or make a long commute (40 mins each way) 5x a week

 

[CTB Dream]

ya vsry knw how this no wrd dscrb all thing say