I don't deserve to be alive

[Steamm]

All I give to my family is nothing but troubles, every fucking week there's a new art made by me, and they are the ones who have to pay the bill. I don't know why they want me alive, everytime I say to my mother that I shouldn't be alive she says "don't say that, we love you". I was meant to die till the end of the year, but I couldn't make it. Won't set a new deadline to be honest. Shit.

 

[Ghost2211]

They pay for an art class or program? Sorry I didn't understand that bit. If you've mentioned suicidal feelings to your mom does she talk it out with you and listen to what is distressing you? Also, I'm a mom, and I can tell you I would never see my kids as a burden that I prefer to not have. If your mom loves you she'll never see you as a burden.

 

[ihavetoleave]

All I give to my family is nothing but troubles, every fucking week there's a new art made by me, and they are the ones who have to pay the bill. I don't know why they want me alive, everytime I say to my mother that I shouldn't be alive she says "don't say that, we love you". I was meant to die till the end of the year, but I couldn't make it. Won't set a new deadline to be honest. Shit.

Same, I keep plodding through the mess I made/make and I didn't want to reach this year and yet here I am with no options and no way to move forward in life or CTB. I selfishly keep hanging to the side of this cliff even though it doesn't help me or anyone else that has the misfortune to be around me.

 

[Sherri]

They pay for an art class or program? Sorry I didn't understand that bit. If you've mentioned suicidal feelings to your mom does she talk it out with you and listen to what is distressing you? Also, I'm a mom, and I can tell you I would never see my kids as a burden that I prefer to not have. If your mom loves you she'll never see you as a burden.

Oh Rosey wish I had a mum like you. Mine doesn't care one bit about me, neither as my dad.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i do too all my life i've hurt people and been totally oblivious to it.

 

[Steamm]

They pay for an art class or program? Sorry I didn't understand that bit. If you've mentioned suicidal feelings to your mom does she talk it out with you and listen to what is distressing you? Also, I'm a mom, and I can tell you I would never see my kids as a burden that I prefer to not have. If your mom loves you she'll never see you as a burden.

Sorry Rosey I've made a mistake with my native language. I mean everytime I screw things up the come to solve it.

 

[Ghost2211]

Sorry Rosey I've made a mistake with my native language. I mean everytime I screw things up the come to solve it.

That makes more sense. Still, if you have a good relationship with your family they will be happy to help and support you. You likely view your self worse than they view you.