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TheBag

TheBag

Member
Jan 11, 2026
34
The idea of growing old really scares me, watching my already weak and sickly body decay even further sounds painful.

And growing old without starting my own family sounds so damn lonely, like imagine waking up at 45 years old, your back hurts, your room is messy, and worst of all, your house is completely empty, and nobody has come to visit you in years (it was your mother btw)

It sounds so dull, what would motivate anyone to keep going if they haven't found love/purpose by that point?
I'm 61. But 45 actually sounds quite young to me.
I can tell from experience that your back starts hurting somewhere around 55.
As for me, my room never gets messy because I have OCD🤨.
Someone else mentioned getting ugly before. Yes, I can confirm this process sets in around 60 (which has been proven scientifically).
What motivates someone like me to keep on going? The answer is quite simple. Love, which I was lucky enough to find. If I hadn't, the quest to find it would be my main purpose.
 
unwilling_lich

unwilling_lich

emo mcgee
Jan 1, 2024
47
im 31 and i still act like, live like, and get treated like a child, then when they realize im 31 they just look down on me in a different way
 
somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

Live, Laugh, Larp
Aug 30, 2025
286
Hi! It's your birthday! I'd like to give you a birthday Aiko! :happy:

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That's the sweetest thing anybody has done for me today, thank you so much!!! I mean it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Trust me when I say that I smiled and giggled for 5 minutes straight when I read your post 😅

Also, I'm still alive... For now. Lol. I fully expected to do it by today but once again I failed. I'm not too sad, though! Life has been treating me better for the past month or so.
 
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Alumina

Alumina

The king is dead long live the king
May 29, 2026
39
And growing old without starting my own family sounds so damn lonely, like imagine waking up at 45 years old, your back hurts, your room is messy, and worst of all, your house is completely empty, and nobody has come to visit you in years (it was your mother btw)

It sounds so dull, what would motivate anyone to keep going if they haven't found love/purpose by that point?
i knew a guy like that, and basically work become your life. on your free time you watch tv or play videogames or you find a hobby, not much different than "normal" life except you got no hoes and no kids to bring you joy
 

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