ConfusedHurting2632

ConfusedHurting2632

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Dec 22, 2021
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To start things off, if my age matters, I am currently 21 years old BUT I turn 22 years old on July 20, which is obviously pretty soon, haha. Honestly, I'm surprised I've made it THIS FAR. I mean a whopping 21, almost 22 years, whilst being extremely depressed, bipolar, borderline, full of anxiety, AND suicidal during all that time?! Woah! :O

But anyways, recently I got put on 2 new medications...Lithium 300MG to help with my bipolar, it's a mood stabilizer...and Trazodone 100MG to help with my depression and to help me sleep as well, it's an anti-depressant. And they actually helped...A LOT. I have had tried SIX different medications before these 2, they were varieties of anti-depressants and anti-psychotics; and they all had horrible side effects and made me EVEN WORSE. But these 2 medications...THEY ACTUALLY FUCKING WORKED!!! ;D

BUT...the REAL question, how long will feeling this good last? Judging from past experiences, when something seems to go well for me, it goes well for A LITTLE WHILE...but soon enough, before I know it, things get worse AGAIN, and also MUCH WORSE than previously...it just seems like I'm destined to be unhappy and miserable. The good times NEVER last, but the BAD times on the other hand...they last FOREVER and just keep dragging ON and ON and ON...UGGGHHH!!! >_<
 
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HighFlight

HighFlight

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Jun 28, 2023
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Congratulations, and Happy Birthday (a little early)!

I been trying various antidepressants and just stopped Wellbutrin. For me the side effects are worse than the depression. And the doctors want me stabilized on an antidepressant before trying anything for the anxiety. Still waiting for something to work.

For you, I hope this combo will work and the good times will last longer than before.
 
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Housefly

Housefly

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May 7, 2023
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Happy birthday dude. I'm on lithium as well and it's doing it's thing. I worry about the same thing. My therapist said that relapses happen while in recovery and not to be too hard on yourself. Allow yourself to feel and try to combat the negative self talk with factual events that would make even you proud that you've done. It's really not easy.

Question though, does the lithium give you the shakes? Because it does to me
 
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LittleJem

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my dad's friend had maybe thirty or forty good years on lithium and a good life. So I wish the same for you…

I tried it and it just made me wee a lot. But maybe I didn't give it enough time. It did help my SI
plus that's a nice low dose of lithium so you have room to increase if needed in future
 
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clockwork_cat

clockwork_cat

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Feb 24, 2023
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h appy birthday i hope it lasts a long time and more after that

╱|、 (˚ˎ 。7 |、˜〵 じしˍ,)ノ itssupposed t o be a cat
 
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synthcadia

synthcadia

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Jul 8, 2023
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happy birthday!

for me, i don't focus on how long it will last (it's not a due date) but what i can do, i suppose.
 
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