ConfusedHurting2632
Student
- Dec 22, 2021
- 132
To start things off, if my age matters, I am currently 21 years old BUT I turn 22 years old on July 20, which is obviously pretty soon, haha. Honestly, I'm surprised I've made it THIS FAR. I mean a whopping 21, almost 22 years, whilst being extremely depressed, bipolar, borderline, full of anxiety, AND suicidal during all that time?! Woah!
But anyways, recently I got put on 2 new medications...Lithium 300MG to help with my bipolar, it's a mood stabilizer...and Trazodone 100MG to help with my depression and to help me sleep as well, it's an anti-depressant. And they actually helped...A LOT. I have had tried SIX different medications before these 2, they were varieties of anti-depressants and anti-psychotics; and they all had horrible side effects and made me EVEN WORSE. But these 2 medications...THEY ACTUALLY FUCKING WORKED!!! ;D
BUT...the REAL question, how long will feeling this good last? Judging from past experiences, when something seems to go well for me, it goes well for A LITTLE WHILE...but soon enough, before I know it, things get worse AGAIN, and also MUCH WORSE than previously...it just seems like I'm destined to be unhappy and miserable. The good times NEVER last, but the BAD times on the other hand...they last FOREVER and just keep dragging ON and ON and ON...UGGGHHH!!! >_<
But anyways, recently I got put on 2 new medications...Lithium 300MG to help with my bipolar, it's a mood stabilizer...and Trazodone 100MG to help with my depression and to help me sleep as well, it's an anti-depressant. And they actually helped...A LOT. I have had tried SIX different medications before these 2, they were varieties of anti-depressants and anti-psychotics; and they all had horrible side effects and made me EVEN WORSE. But these 2 medications...THEY ACTUALLY FUCKING WORKED!!! ;D
BUT...the REAL question, how long will feeling this good last? Judging from past experiences, when something seems to go well for me, it goes well for A LITTLE WHILE...but soon enough, before I know it, things get worse AGAIN, and also MUCH WORSE than previously...it just seems like I'm destined to be unhappy and miserable. The good times NEVER last, but the BAD times on the other hand...they last FOREVER and just keep dragging ON and ON and ON...UGGGHHH!!! >_<