cheesefundamental
Member
- Apr 2, 2021
- 33
todays my. last day, i think
ive been postponing it long enough, and the friends who kept calling me that lead me to postponing it, thankfully, didn't think to call today
i have almost everything ready, i just wanted to post my story on here, edit my suicide letter, and make sure my other ones are intact, take a shower, and then.. yeah.
but i slept through most of today. in the early morning, when i wake up, i get such a strong urge to do it
then i have to endure the day, and i grow more numb / apathetic towards the idea
i guess my motivations always been this way. ill wake up with all of these ideas, and things i want to do! then it'll go away.
im tired of my depression costing me everything. i hate that i couldn't even really have a properly fun, or eventful day, i argued with my ex then slept through all of it.
im so sick and tired. im so sick and i mso tired.
ive been postponing it long enough, and the friends who kept calling me that lead me to postponing it, thankfully, didn't think to call today
i have almost everything ready, i just wanted to post my story on here, edit my suicide letter, and make sure my other ones are intact, take a shower, and then.. yeah.
but i slept through most of today. in the early morning, when i wake up, i get such a strong urge to do it
then i have to endure the day, and i grow more numb / apathetic towards the idea
i guess my motivations always been this way. ill wake up with all of these ideas, and things i want to do! then it'll go away.
im tired of my depression costing me everything. i hate that i couldn't even really have a properly fun, or eventful day, i argued with my ex then slept through all of it.
im so sick and tired. im so sick and i mso tired.