I didn't do it.

[ThinkingOutLoud]

I am filled with regret. I had planned to shoot myself this morning, and I couldn't do it. I made a previous post to this forum about how I had planned to shoot myself today, and I pussied out. I wish I had anything to say, I'm just at a loss for words.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I am filled with regret. I had planned to shoot myself this morning, and I couldn't do it. I made a previous post to this forum about how I had planned to shoot myself today, and I pussied out. I wish I had anything to say, I'm just at a loss for words.

There is always tomorrow and even another day after that if you are not too sure just wait… I however knows exactly when I will be completing my ctb… I wish you the best with any decision that you are going to make …

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I admire your strength to continue fighting for another day, I know that if I had a gun I couldnt resist the urge to use it for more than a few hours

 

[MusicEnjoyer:D]

Don't be to hard on yourself. It's never to late to catch the bus ❤

 

[pickajack]

Don't worry. If there is anything that you think will give you even a few moments of peace/joy, go for it.
Try a comforting food or movie, a picture you like, a favorite clothing item that makes you feel safe-anything.
Big hugs to you. Don't be hard on yourself.

 

[Doombox]

It's times like this that we find out just how strong survival instinct really is. Try not to be too hard on yourself...you aren't the only one here to back out at the last minute.

 

[MusicGuy]

You're very lucky to be able to go by the gun method, but you don't have to be so hard on yourself, these things happen, there is and will always be more opportunities. Your time will come, wish you find peace one day

 

[loyalskateboard]

That's okay. You don't have to do anything and it's never too late to change your mind. Even if you were holding the gun, you can put it down. That doesn't mean you "pussied out" and you should be kinder to yourself. I am sorry you are hurting.

 

[inmyhead]

That survival instinct is always difficult to overcome. I had my own moment today too. Sometimes I think we are just meant to hang around a bit longer.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about your additional suffering, and the SI (survival instinct) is indeed a bitch and more to overcome. I hope you find peace in the interim as well as whatever decision you come to in the future.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least having the option of the gun method means you have the option of a way to leave so that you aren't trapped here with no way out. It's true that it's like the survival instinct exists just to prolong our suffering, suicide just isn't straightforward after all but anyway I wish you the best.