Venting I decided to make a gamble.

[birthdaylastwish]

I am so tired of everything. I try and try again, but nothing ever goes according to plan. I feel like that everything that I put effort ends up in a worse place than before.
That's why, i've decided that I am going to try my best to make my life better until my birthday this year. If I look at my life and don't feel happy, I am going to ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I also feel so tired but anyway I wish you the best in whatever you decide.

 

[_D_]

If you're going to set a goal like that you should make it a bit more detailed. It's pretty vague and I would probably guarantee you're going to reach your birthday and come to the conclusion that you're not happy. I would define more clearly what you actually want.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

As someone who has made a similar gamble, I wish you the best of luck.

 

[birthdaylastwish]

If you're going to set a goal like that you should make it a bit more detailed. It's pretty vague and I would probably guarantee you're going to reach your birthday and come to the conclusion that you're not happy. I would define more clearly what you actually want.

I want to be at peace with my family, i want to enjoy things again, I want to be more brave. I want to feel pleasure again. And I wish I could see snow before I die.

I did and I am doing everything in my power to do all of this.

I know that life is a struggle of balacing my expectations versus whats possible to achieve but I just feel so tired of it all.

I wish i could truly rest.

As someone who has made a similar gamble, I wish you the best of luck.

Can you share more about your gamble?