Venting I couldn't jump so I tried partial again

[Escape_Reality]

At night, holding hands and running together?

Hadn't thought of that, would be comforting holding someone's hand in the final moment. Thankyou

 

[Largeletters]

I for sure thought I was gonna jump but I couldn't do it.
I can never fucking do it.
So I went home and tried partial but that failed as usual.
Why can't I do it?
I can't compress the arteries I have read everything there is to read on it, done every bit of advice I could possibly find and I still can't fucking do it properly.
Why can't I jump?
I have no problems trying to hang myself.
I wish I had somewhere to do full.

I agree with others, it might not be your time yet, but jumping is also somewhat scary method, at least for some people. It's harder to make yourself jump than swallow pills or jump off of a bucket.