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NoReasonToLive2023
Change and decay in all around I see
- Jun 4, 2023
- 62
So two days ago I finally tried to end it all. I went to the former railway viaduct. I sent my note to my friends. As what I thought would be my final act, I sent a message to my mum telling her I loved her.
I placed my phone down for someone to find.
I climbed on the two sets of railings.
Then the fear hit me. Fear of failing, fear of what would happen if I didn't land in a way that would make sure I died.
I couldn't bring myself to finish the job. I just didn't have the bottle.
It's definitely not a coward's way out. It takes IMMENSE bravery.
I placed my phone down for someone to find.
I climbed on the two sets of railings.
Then the fear hit me. Fear of failing, fear of what would happen if I didn't land in a way that would make sure I died.
I couldn't bring myself to finish the job. I just didn't have the bottle.
It's definitely not a coward's way out. It takes IMMENSE bravery.