Been wanting to ctb since i was 14
Came close couple years ago but called someone to come help me.
This past year though it's gotten really bad and It feels like I'm an inch away from doing it. I'm just waiting for something terrible to happen to give me that final push like losing my living situation, or my chronic health issues getting worse to the point where living becomes difficult even if I wanted to live.
Made an order for sn today and I'm gonna store it in a box for that day if it comes. Hopefully I didn't get scammed though... I'll do aquarium test if it even comes in the nail ever.
Originally my method was gonna be detergent based but I feel sn would fit me better.
I still am holding on for something positive to happen in my life for once though... going through this for over 15 years has taken a toll on my brain and ability to focus, talk, remember, ect
Came close couple years ago but called someone to come help me.
This past year though it's gotten really bad and It feels like I'm an inch away from doing it. I'm just waiting for something terrible to happen to give me that final push like losing my living situation, or my chronic health issues getting worse to the point where living becomes difficult even if I wanted to live.
Made an order for sn today and I'm gonna store it in a box for that day if it comes. Hopefully I didn't get scammed though... I'll do aquarium test if it even comes in the nail ever.
Originally my method was gonna be detergent based but I feel sn would fit me better.
I still am holding on for something positive to happen in my life for once though... going through this for over 15 years has taken a toll on my brain and ability to focus, talk, remember, ect
