i can't wait to die

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everything in my life continues to go wrong. i'm so stressed and so lonely, everything is getting worse. i want to ctb with someone so i can feel even slightly less lonely, but that's not possible.

i'm still nervous about ctb. there's still some part of me that wants to back out because i'm still clinging to this delusion that i can somehow be happy.

i feel so sick all of the time because i'm so overwhelmed. i talk to friends and strangers/acquaintances on a daily basis, but it feels like i haven't talked to anyone in so long. it honestly doesn't feel like anyone genuinely cares.

there's still a decent amout of tasks i need to finish before i can ctb. i just want to die now. i've never been this miserable before.

 

[cazza82]

everything in my life continues to go wrong. i'm so stressed and so lonely, everything is getting worse. i want to ctb with someone so i can feel even slightly less lonely, but that's not possible.

i'm still nervous about ctb. there's still some part of me that wants to back out because i'm still clinging to this delusion that i can somehow be happy.

i feel so sick all of the time because i'm so overwhelmed. i talk to friends and strangers/acquaintances on a daily basis, but it feels like i haven't talked to anyone in so long. it honestly doesn't feel like anyone genuinely cares.

there's still a decent amout of tasks i need to finish before i can ctb. i just want to die now. i've never been this miserable before.

I feel you just when I think maybe I could get better or be happy boom something happens again. No one seems to understand just how bad my life is I have a counsellor a drugs counsellor but I just think it's to late for me I get the overwhelming feeling to

 

[human909]

I also can't wait to die, hope you find peace soon.